I do not have words to describe what I have done. Why did I betray Julia. How could I betray Julia? Why was it so easy? I thought that I loved her. But I must not love her as much as I thought I did, since I was able to betray her so quickly. She will never love me again.
I cannot believe what I have done, my poor Julia.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Section 3 - Chapter 4
I was transferred to a new prison cell. I wont say that I am loving it. But it is much better than the one that I used to be in. I get cigarettes, meat, and warm baths. But I still can’t help but wonder how Julia is doing. I miss her now more than ever. I have been show mind control. Forgetting more of my past everyday. I am now trying to hate the brotherhood, and start loving Big Brother. I also must hide my emotions, but this is what I have the most trouble with. I was sitting in my room thinking about Julia. When I burst out I love Julia. And I was moved back to the dreaded room 101.
Section 3 - Chapter 3
Nothing feels right. O’Brien has hurt me today without even touching me. He should me what I look like. I am this old beaten up man. I have nothing. And I will never have anything again. Is there still a point in living? Should I tell him everything?
I still decided not to tell him anything, in fear that if I speak that they may hurt Julia. But what if Julia has already told them everything. And that is why they are still torturing me. But Julia would never do that. I love her. And she loves me.
I still decided not to tell him anything, in fear that if I speak that they may hurt Julia. But what if Julia has already told them everything. And that is why they are still torturing me. But Julia would never do that. I love her. And she loves me.
Section 3 - Chapter 2
O’Brien had not been captured. In fact, he was the one that was torturing me. He had set Julia and I up. He knew that I looked up to him. He knew that if he turned off the telescreen that I would tell him everything when we were in his house. He controlled me. And now since I am in the prison he really controls me. He tortures me so that I will tell him everything that I know, and so that I will confess. I looked up to him. But he betrayed me. He was never trying to help me at all, he is just trying to kill me.
Section 3 - Chapter 1
There is no way out. We are stuck. There is nothing to do. I do not get food or water. I cannot do anything. I just sit and wait. Scared of my future, and what will become of me. I tried to think of something, but I could not. I felt trapped. The room was dark. Telescreens were everywhere. And this time I was sure that they were on. Watching me. They knew everything.
I saw O’Brien come in. But that was the last of him. He had been captured to. All of us were in prison. Julia, O’Brien, and myself.
I saw O’Brien come in. But that was the last of him. He had been captured to. All of us were in prison. Julia, O’Brien, and myself.
Section 2 - Chapter 10
I knew that this was going to happen sometime or another.
Julia and I were standing there. And we said “we are dead,” then we heard this voice. But what was it? It could only be one thing, a telescreen. The telescreen then said, “you are dead.” Troops began to invade our apartment. They beat and hurt Julia. Then I saw Mr. Charrington. I realized that he was a member of the thought police. We had been caught. We didn't even bother to think that there could be a hidden telescreen. Poor Julia.
Julia and I were standing there. And we said “we are dead,” then we heard this voice. But what was it? It could only be one thing, a telescreen. The telescreen then said, “you are dead.” Troops began to invade our apartment. They beat and hurt Julia. Then I saw Mr. Charrington. I realized that he was a member of the thought police. We had been caught. We didn't even bother to think that there could be a hidden telescreen. Poor Julia.
Section 2 - Chapter 9
Oh, how I hate, Hate Week. I have bee Working all week, for a total of 90 hours. The only good part about this week is that I have received Goldstein’s book! This book proved that I should be in the brother hood. Because it clarified everything that I had been wondering about, and everything that I had been thinking for the past few months. One of the main things that I took away from the book is that war is not really war at all. It is peace. Because we do not know what peace is. we only know what war is supposed to feel like.
From what I have learned, in this society. Ignorance is truly strength. The proles are the lucky ones, because they do not have worries, and they are kept ignorant.
From what I have learned, in this society. Ignorance is truly strength. The proles are the lucky ones, because they do not have worries, and they are kept ignorant.
Section 2 - Chapter 8
Julia and I both went to O’Brien’s. when we arrived and saw where he lived we were astonished. His complex was amazing. He had servants, and all of the fixings inside were magnificent. We could not believe our eyes.
One of the most exciting things also happened when we entered. He turned off the telescreen. Which meant that Big Brother did not know what was being said. And he was not watching us. That told me that this meeting had to be important. He told us about the brotherhood, and how we had to be prepared to commit treason, murder people, and commit suicide.
I was told that upon our next meeting I would be given Goldstein’s book. This brought me all kinds of joy. I had become part of the brotherhood. My dream gad bee accomplished. I had been right about O’Brien. He wanted me to join the rebellion so that we could fight Big Brother together.
One of the most exciting things also happened when we entered. He turned off the telescreen. Which meant that Big Brother did not know what was being said. And he was not watching us. That told me that this meeting had to be important. He told us about the brotherhood, and how we had to be prepared to commit treason, murder people, and commit suicide.
I was told that upon our next meeting I would be given Goldstein’s book. This brought me all kinds of joy. I had become part of the brotherhood. My dream gad bee accomplished. I had been right about O’Brien. He wanted me to join the rebellion so that we could fight Big Brother together.
Section 2 - Chapter 7
Last night I had a dream. It was about my family. This dream had made me cry. I woke up and Julia was starring at me puzzled. I began explaining my dream. And how mean I had been to my family. My mother especially, she had done so much for me, but all I did was push her away. I killed my family. I did not allow my baby sister to even grow up, because I was a greedy child. Never letting her have anything, and taking it all for myself.
Julia was the one that helped me survive that night. She mad me feel better. And she told me that I had not done wrong. The party would not control us forever.
This dream made me want my memory more. I tried to think harder about my past, but I could not remember much more. But I do have a past. Everyone does. But most have forgotten it, because that is what Big Brother wanted. He does not want us to have power. Which is why we do not know what has happened
Julia was the one that helped me survive that night. She mad me feel better. And she told me that I had not done wrong. The party would not control us forever.
This dream made me want my memory more. I tried to think harder about my past, but I could not remember much more. But I do have a past. Everyone does. But most have forgotten it, because that is what Big Brother wanted. He does not want us to have power. Which is why we do not know what has happened
Section 2 - chapter 6
I cannot believe what happened today. It was strange, but it excited me. O’brien talked to me. He told me about how a need a new dictionary. I taught new forms of newspeak which he said that I needed to learn. But I knew that he was actually inviting me over because he wanted to talk to me about the brotherhood and Goldstein because he too wanted to become part of the rebellion but did not know how, and he knew that we could do it together.
I know that he wants more contact with me and going to his house to retrieve this book will give him the contact that he needs. This meeting will be for the best. We will join the brotherhood, and we will stop Big Brother once and for all.
I know that he wants more contact with me and going to his house to retrieve this book will give him the contact that he needs. This meeting will be for the best. We will join the brotherhood, and we will stop Big Brother once and for all.
Section 2 - Chapter 5
Hate week has started. Which means that for a week I must pretend that Goldstein and the brotherhood are evil. I must act like I would and could never become apart of the brotherhood, and that I would have nothing to do with Goldstein. But believing this was like believing a lie. But, everyone was participating in this lie, and they all believed the same thing.
Julia does not understand most of what I do. Maybe I am to smart just like Syme. Will I be the next to go? I think that people should want to know more about their past and the people that came before them. Because that is what has made them who they are today. Which is why I wish I could remember. I want to remember what has happened. I want to know more.
Julia does not understand most of what I do. Maybe I am to smart just like Syme. Will I be the next to go? I think that people should want to know more about their past and the people that came before them. Because that is what has made them who they are today. Which is why I wish I could remember. I want to remember what has happened. I want to know more.
Section 2 - Chapter 4
Oh yes, yes, yes, YES! I have a place where I can now spend time with Julia, and it is all thanks to Mr. Charrington. Julia and I now have a place, it is just our place, no one else’s, a place where we can spend more and more time together, as much time as we want. Renting this place was the best thing that I ever did.
Julia had specialties from the inner party, and she decided to bring them to share with me. She brought over sugar, white bread, coffee, and jam. But, she also brought over one very special surprise that amazed me, Julia brought over make-up, and when she put it on, she was the most astonishing woman I had ever laid eyes on. She looked amazing.
The only problem with this unit, and that was that there was a rat. Rats are the thing that I am most scared of.
Julia had specialties from the inner party, and she decided to bring them to share with me. She brought over sugar, white bread, coffee, and jam. But, she also brought over one very special surprise that amazed me, Julia brought over make-up, and when she put it on, she was the most astonishing woman I had ever laid eyes on. She looked amazing.
The only problem with this unit, and that was that there was a rat. Rats are the thing that I am most scared of.
Section 2 - Chapter 3
The sash, now laying on the ground, and this beautiful sleeping body in my arms, made me love her now, more than ever.
But this happiness was not going to last long, because when Julia woke up from her nap she was ready to get out of the meadow. She knew that we both needed to go back to our own houses. She told me that she lives with 30 other women, which means that I could never go there she would always have to come to my place if we were to ever be together again.
After Julia had left I wanted her back. I needed her back. I knew that I would have to wait for her to tell me her next time that we could meet, but who knew when that was going to be. But. We were finally able to arrange a meeting place. It was the church tower. The place was a mess, but I just needed to be with her get to know her more, and spend as much time as possible with her. I found out that she is very young, 26. and she works in the fiction department. I told her that I was still married, but it was a horrible relationship, and it did not last because we could not have children, and that was the only thing that my wife Katherine thought sex was good for.
But this happiness was not going to last long, because when Julia woke up from her nap she was ready to get out of the meadow. She knew that we both needed to go back to our own houses. She told me that she lives with 30 other women, which means that I could never go there she would always have to come to my place if we were to ever be together again.
After Julia had left I wanted her back. I needed her back. I knew that I would have to wait for her to tell me her next time that we could meet, but who knew when that was going to be. But. We were finally able to arrange a meeting place. It was the church tower. The place was a mess, but I just needed to be with her get to know her more, and spend as much time as possible with her. I found out that she is very young, 26. and she works in the fiction department. I told her that I was still married, but it was a horrible relationship, and it did not last because we could not have children, and that was the only thing that my wife Katherine thought sex was good for.
Section 2- Chapter 2
The dark haired girl is not a spy of the thought police.
Her name is also Julia, the girl that loves me is named Julia, the beautiful youthful young woman is named Julia.
The dark haired girl is named Julia!
Julia led me deep into the meadow where there were no telesccreens, and where we could talk. She laughed at me when I told her I though she was a spy. She hates Big Brother, which made me smile cause I too hate him. I also learned that she has slept with plenty of men. So why is that sash still tied around her beautiful thin waist?
Her name is also Julia, the girl that loves me is named Julia, the beautiful youthful young woman is named Julia.
The dark haired girl is named Julia!
Julia led me deep into the meadow where there were no telesccreens, and where we could talk. She laughed at me when I told her I though she was a spy. She hates Big Brother, which made me smile cause I too hate him. I also learned that she has slept with plenty of men. So why is that sash still tied around her beautiful thin waist?
Section 2 - Chapter 1
Love, love, love? That one word that is now stuck in my head.
I thought she hated me. Is this a trick? I do not understand, we have had no contact, how could she love me? I do not even know her name. But I must meet her now and ask her about this. But how? We have never had any contact before. That would look strange to a spy. We must converse in a secret place, where no one will know what we are talking about, I just have to meet her.
I thought she hated me. Is this a trick? I do not understand, we have had no contact, how could she love me? I do not even know her name. But I must meet her now and ask her about this. But how? We have never had any contact before. That would look strange to a spy. We must converse in a secret place, where no one will know what we are talking about, I just have to meet her.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
section 1
I am scared to be writing, but I feel that I must. My memory is going away, and I need something to hold on to. I do not have much time. Because the telescreen seems to always be watching me. I want to remember, but it seems like I cannot.
I live in an old run down house. Called victory Mansion. But it is not a mansion at all It smell of old cabbage and there seems to be dust everywhere I look. There is no privacy, but no one has privacy, because Big Brother is ALWAYS watching us. He knows everything. And he sees everything. Through these telescreens, that you never know if they are on or off, you just have to think that they are on all the time.
Each day is a routine, we wake up, have our morning exercises, work and the 2 minute hate. During the two minute hate is where I met the Dark- haired girl. I wanted her, I wanted her so much I couldn’t stand it. But I couldn’t have her. Which made me hate her, so I wanted to kill her. She was an anti-sex officer. Why would such a beautiful girl be against such a great part of life? I wanted her gone, but I also need her. As I sat there watching the hate I realized that she was staring at me. Which made me think that she was a spy. I could have nothing to do with her.
The hate seemed to be a form of mind control; I could not control myself from yelling at the huge telescreen, as was everyone else. We were all controlled by something, and that one thing is fear.
I live in an old run down house. Called victory Mansion. But it is not a mansion at all It smell of old cabbage and there seems to be dust everywhere I look. There is no privacy, but no one has privacy, because Big Brother is ALWAYS watching us. He knows everything. And he sees everything. Through these telescreens, that you never know if they are on or off, you just have to think that they are on all the time.
Each day is a routine, we wake up, have our morning exercises, work and the 2 minute hate. During the two minute hate is where I met the Dark- haired girl. I wanted her, I wanted her so much I couldn’t stand it. But I couldn’t have her. Which made me hate her, so I wanted to kill her. She was an anti-sex officer. Why would such a beautiful girl be against such a great part of life? I wanted her gone, but I also need her. As I sat there watching the hate I realized that she was staring at me. Which made me think that she was a spy. I could have nothing to do with her.
The hate seemed to be a form of mind control; I could not control myself from yelling at the huge telescreen, as was everyone else. We were all controlled by something, and that one thing is fear.
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